Three's

They say things come in three's and I guess they are right.
Where do I begin. Jayson has decided after three years it is time for a break to make sure this is the right place for him to be. He said he needs to work on himself. OK So here's how this break thing is going... NOT WELL AT ALL! I really need that loving person to be here with me now and telling me it will all be ok.  And he is not here and it is not ok. I don't want to do this thing called life without him. He is the one and I am sure of it!

Second thing... Another break... this time a hip, my grnadmother's hip. My memmy went out last Saturday with my grandfather and she fell and broke her hip. We knew for a long time that this would eventually happen. THe whole family sadly was waiting for this to happen. because now it is an absolute reality check for my grandparents that they can no longer live alone in their home. So my mother is stressed to the max and I am trying to help her do whatever she needs. But honestly I know that all she wishes for is that my father would be here to help her through this. Because exactly how I feel about Jayson is how my mother felt about my father. She loved him so much and he was her partner and they were always there for eachother. So I know that my mom is trying to be strong for her mom but really sad. Not only is memmy's hip broke but now they transferred her to a nursing home and it is an experience I wish I didn't have to see. Most of the residents have some form of dementia or alzheimers and it ie so sad. My grandmother has what they call mini strokes  and so she talks and acts as a dementia patient. It just seems to be a reality that I don't think she will ever get better. I miss my memmy they way she was. I am reliving my great-grandmothers final years now, (that was her mother) She too had these mini strokes and eventually it was one big one that sent her back to God.

So on top of all of this the third and final straw was the phone call from my sister that her husband had accepted a job at a major resort in Sandusky, OHIO. UGH....It was definitly not what we wanted to hear at this time but we knew it was coming because he had been applying all over the country for months. But why now!? They have to be packed and moved to Ohio by next Sunday, Nov. 14. I only  have 6 more days to see my only sister.

That leaves me and my mom and two little ones alone in this house. With out the support of my father or sister. I just want to go back in time and I know this is Gods plan and he has a reason for all of this but I just wish I knew why?