Lent

Today is Ash Wednesday and the first day of Lent. The kids and I will attend mass tonight and recieve ashes.

It is also a time each year where I try to give something up. I usually try to give up soda but I recently did cut back drastically on my intake so I have decided this year to give up something more serious and meaningful.

My past mistakes and anger.
Truth is I can't give up Rob, he is the kids father and he will always be there. But I can forgive him and try to give up my anger towards his choices that ultimatly led to our breakup. Because there is no changing the past and all my anger will never make it better or change what has already occured. So for the next few weeks I will ask God to help me be less angry.

And not just at Rob, but at life in general. Because for along time I was angry at God for giving me a sick child. I was angry I couldn't do as much as I would have liked with Madison because of all the care Robby needs.

Today I know how blessed I am to be the mother of a special child who loves me unconditionally. And the mother of an amazing girl who knows I love her too. Our "girl" moments together are even better because we cherish the time we do get alone to have fun!

My friend Shelli (another Mito mom) posted this on her facebook the other day and I really liked the quote.

Nobody gets to live life backwards. Look ahead, that is where your future lies. -Ann Landers

This poem I found was really neat too.

God Sent to Me an Angel

God sent to me an angel,
it had a broken wing.
I bent my head and wondered
"How could God do such a thing?"
When I asked the Father
why He sent this child to me,
the answer was forthcoming,
He said "Listen and you'll see."
"My children are all precious,
and none is like the rest.
Each one to me is special,
and the least is as the best.
I send each one from Heaven
and I place it in the care
of those who know my mercy,
those with love to spare.
Sometimes I take them back again.
Sometimes I let them stay.
No matter what may happen
I am never far away.
So if you find an angel
and you don't know what to do,
remember, I am with you,
love is all I ask of you."

Written by Paul Dammann, dammann4@bellsouth.net
Angels on the Net, http://www.geocities.com/Heartland/Trail/1702


Hope your having a good day and here's to a blessed Lenten season!